I Saw the Sign

I wasn’t feeling all too bright and sunny today, and I guess so was the weather. Today, the sky was blue, if a bit dark. Everything seemed calm and still – and I guess that’s what I direly needed. After the emotional and physical upheaval of last night, I was in need of peace and serenity. And maybe that was why when I reached into my closet for something to wear in the office today, my eyes darted to the only blue piece that I could see.

I saw the sign, and it opened up my eyes, I saw the sign

I know, I know, there’s nothing bit peaceful and serene in the patterns of the blue dress but the sheer blueness kept me calm, guarded and whole. And happy, on some levels unexpected.

Life is demanding without understanding

No one's gonna drag you up into the light where you belong..

It has domino effect – the way you dress has a way of affecting how you see yourself; how you see yourself affects the way you present yourself to people and all this eventually will affect how you feel. Rotten outfit does break my day, in the same way great clothes can turn bad day into a good one. Thus I start bad days with good clothes, and today I achieved that very effect I was looking for – positivity.

Sudden turns in life are hard and changes always provide stress. In a course of two hours, happy night turned bitter, hateful words flew from mouths of helpless. We were lost in the situation bigger than we were. The promises of happy togetherness suddenly all gone. I lost what I was believing in. It was hurtful and sad. But in the course of time, I believe I had already given my all, real and true. This fact keeps me empowered. I regret nothing. I hope to regret nothing. And alas, I can be happy now.

Dress: Cebu downtown market find / Shoes: Divisoria find / Necklace: random from bazaar / Scarf: Landmark Department Store

(I didn’t see it at first but writing where I got my outfit, I realized I just had proven how fasyon can be so inexpensive *big smile)

I saw the sign and it opened up my mind!
And I am happy now living without you
I’ve left you, oh-oh-OH!
I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes I saw the sign
No one’s gonna drag you up to get into the light where you belong

I saw the sign and it opened up my mind, I saw the sign!

How do you know when you’re in love?

Fireworks suddenly adorning the sky, bursting in multitude of shades of red, yellow, blue and white. How do you know when you’re in love?

Time slows down. Hours become years, seconds become days, a single moment lasts forever. How do you know when you’re in love?

People fade away. Things fade away. The honks of the cars outside fade away. The waitress carrying your food fades away. The cry of the baby next table fades away, heck the whole lot of next tables fade away. Everything else but you and him fades away. How do you know when you’re in love?

Light lit up, music comes in – they are on cue. The ground melts away, you float in the air. How do you know you’re in love?

Butterflies in the stomach, clammy hands, dry lips, cold sweat. You are not in front of class, about to give speech – no, he simply is in front of you. How do you know when you’re in love?

I see his flaws and tremendous complications. I am afraid to treat him unjustly even when they say this is never fair for me. I can never hurt him. I let him get away with everything, I simply try to fit in. I have no regrets – and that is when I knew I’ve fallen in love.